Mini minie mini mole... I cant see which way to go..

Im confused now.. About my feelings.. I want to.. But i noe i cant.. I dun want to.. But i also noe i cant... I cant betray my friends nor her.. I cant betray someone so close and treat like im playing with her.. Love is not a game.. Just like Life isn't one. I cant think of more to say.. Im a Hypocrit.. I contradicted myself so many times nowadays.. I wonder.. am i doing her wrong or am i doing myself wrong? I feel like i just let her down...Belladonna series..